We have grown up hearing this phrase “Sharing is caring”, in schools we use to hear this while on picnics to share our tiffin, and later it became sharing of thoughts. But as the time is changing it seems sharing is actually not caring anymore. When you share your emotional turbulences with people or most precisely your friends, they tend to use it against you or may be later trying to tell you how negative you are and how great they are to still be with you inspite of your reckless behaviour.
It is really sad and then it is termed as you being a difficult person. I don’t know whether I am depressed or not but whatever I have shared with my friends all these years have come infront of me in a very distasteful manner. I had a close friend whom I thought of being transparent infront of her as I thought I can be myself but one day on being asked about my personality, she replied that you have hell lot of emotional issues etc etc, all what I shared being troubled, was presented in a way that I am too emotional and disturbed soul who is difficult to please. Then one of my cousin said that I spoke to you because you are very lonely and no one to talk to, I have many friends you have none, making me realise that I am someone to be felt pity for and then recently one of my actor friend also said that I supported you when everyone else left you, irrespective of me being a celebrity so on and so forth.
All this makes me wonder, was all this worthy for.I shared things out of emotions, being vulnerable and what you all did, made me feel like a loser, someone who should be pittied at, someone who is not wanted, not accepted and you are doing favour at her. So now I think it was rather good if I wouldn’t have opened up about myself at all. Then why all these big big seminars do sweet talks such as share yourself and talk your heart out, when you do so you are later on mocked.
I don’t feel angry on those who came in my life just feel sad for me that I was thinking that people lisitening to me are really my friends and my emotions are worth for giving a ear.
Have a nice day with happy thoughts and genuine people around❤️
Tripts 